Somedays,
I get so sick and tired of worrying about other people's feelings getting hurt.
Because in the process,
I end up getting mine hurt.
So I get upset and try to reconcile the feelings.
I get upset with myself first, like my very own guard trying to line up my feelings
All these just to make sure I don't end up being an asshole to others.
Doesn't matter that all I did was skip a step straight to beating and bruising myself.
(Even though deep down, I just wanna throw some 'fuck yous' and ditch my moral compasses and obsessive 'compassion' impulsions.)
These wretched feelings.
They don't last long. But even for a second, I wonder.
Wow, it's really hard being a good person, can I just give up?
Would that make me a bad person?
