"The longer you stare into the night sky,
The more stars will appear.
And I guess thats why
I love looking at you."
Do you see stars in my eyes?
Even just a twinkle.
Or flowers in my heart?
Even just a bud.
Well it drives me crazy,
To see perfection such as this.
It drives me insane,
To see you shining in the darkest of the abyss.
But it drives me even crazier,
Feeling like an obsessive-compulsive disorder.
Staring at a black dot on a piece of clean white paper,
Like a strange alignment or a plainly distorted border.
When you stand next to me,
And all I can see is imperfection beside flawless.
And I feel so lost in my own skin,
Where is the glow, is it something I have to win?
Because I see the galaxy, staring at you.
I see fireflies in my eyes when I speak of you.
Do you see even a sparkle when you glance at my soul?
(This is written for no one in particular nor does the ' I ' really mean me. It does not mean that it was for a guy or girl or a lover or a friend. It could or might have been inspired by my feelings towards myself or someone I hold high regard for, then again it might not have been. I myself am not too sure. I simply wanted to pen down random thoughts.)
But I am however, feeling a little down about not being able to love myself better. Not so much look down on myself but everyone has those days when they cannot seem to appreciate themselves for who they truly are and instead look to others and wonder why they shine so much, way brighter. I can however say that this is inspired by the occasional nasty, deceiving feelings of feeling so inadequate and so much less special as a human being sometimes being with people (talented/pretty/smart/beautiful) I admire so very much. This is all.
